My Dad, his blanket and behaving like a distraught teenager!

Do you ever wonder why life just goes the way it does sometimes? I always use to say that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes life is life and we take the good with the bad. These last couple of weeks have taken a toll on my emotions, and I can only look to the up coming weeks and hope life can get better.
An up date on my Dad.......................................I have come to the conclusion that my Dad is a cat, the man has 9 bloody lives, as my brother said to me "you can't keep the bugger down!" They moved Dad this weekend to the Cancer Ward, and he seems to be doing a lot better, they are keeping an eye on him and seeing how the medication for the seizures is doing. My Mom mentioned yesterday that he managed to move his left leg and raise his left arm, which is really good. Right now it is taking it a day at a time. I did make a blanket for my Dad, he loves teddy bears and I found this perfect fleece material for him, so that and some cookies and the boys made cards today for Granddad will be shipped off this week.

So hearing that Dad was doing a lot better my week had started to brighten up, and low and behold I find myself acting like a distraught teenager yesterday! I really have to slap myself across the face for acting this way, cause when I start to tell you why, some who read this will probably be laughing at me and roll their eyes. A mean I am 33 years young! a mother of 2 wonderful boys and I cried like a boyfriend had just broken my heart!! All because the New Kids on the Block concert had been canceled here in Albuquerque. YES I am a fan and was a fan all those years ago, I use to drive my parents nuts over posters, and merchandise and going to the concerts, in fact my Dad took me to my first NKOTB concert back in the day. So reality check for me, I am not 13 and life goes on.......................................................

What to say when I am so down

I have been contemplating what to write and really the words are hard to find, all I keep thinking about is my Dad. With out going into great detail, cause I know I will start crying again, my Dad has a brain tumor, he has been through 2 courses of Chemo and a course of radiation, and all seemed to be going well until about 3 weeks ago when he had a seizure, in fact he had 2. The tumor has been growing again, but today the phone rang and noticing that it was my brother's number, for that split second I really did not want to answer the phone.

My Dad is now in the hospital as he had another seizure last night and was rushed to the hospital. I am feeling helpless, sad, and frustrated. I am trying to keep up beat but it is so hard, my eldest had so many questions this afternoon, and it was hard trying to explain to him what was going on. I think I will try and make my Dad a blanket, and see if I can get it shipped out over the weekend.